It’s been a 2020 of a year.

2020 has been... hard. Health Stuff: I started the year feeling miserable. I requested fewer days at my job because my days off were spent recuperating or falling apart from the level of physical activity from the days before. Fast forward to the pandemic and the store I was working at closed permanently. I almost …

A Letter To Myself

I miss my goats. I miss the rabbits. I miss the notion of the life I was trying to build up around myself. I miss life before things got so hard. I miss having that energy I used to have. I miss feeling alive because what I've been feeling is much like surviving or enduring. …

Everything Hurts: Medical Mysteries

I've been hesitant to share specifics because I don't want pity and it feels like I'm very exposed when I think about it but the fact is... I really value transparency. I have a lot of different medical things going on that I believe are all connected. I'll first start by saying I am 33 …

Health Update

My primary doctor thinks my hand pain is from the tendon that runs from the wrist up the thumb and diagnosed it as De Quervain's Disease tenosynovitis. I see a specialist next week. An injection may be an effective treatment option. When it gets bad I can't open the simplest things, it hurts to wash …

Don’t Wait For Perfection

I'm trying to figure out all the things I need to know to start a business. It is overwhelming. There are times in life when we want something so desperately that it immobilizes us against the very actions necessary to see that dream through. We all have to start somewhere. I'm not trying to do …

Seeking Answers

The only thing harder than living with chronic pain is knowing that people don't understand and doctors don't believe you because they can't diagnose what is wrong. Honestly, I don't even understand what is wrong with me and I feel a ton of guilt over it. Like how can I possibly do so well for …

Giving up Homesteading

Things are changing. We are downsizing our little farm to only include birds. I gave some of my hens to my grandpa, his are older and have stopped laying. We processed the rabbits. Despite having a buck in with our goats for months, neither is pregnant and I'm just discouraged and selling them back to …

Little Farm Updates

Our rabbits are 5 weeks old. I have a couple people interested in purchasing some as pets. Our goats are 2-3 weeks from their due dates though I'm starting to wonder about that entirely. I swear neither has gone into heat since January, but we're all first timers here with goat kidding. And I'm essentially …

Family – May 15th

I was feeling especially not good about things yesterday. I think I have some things I need to come to terms with. We're not really doing well as a family. Maybe that's because we're getting into the teen years of irritation and discontent humans. There feels to be a huge amount of disconnect happening. I …

Looking Back & Looking Ahead

I read over a couple previous posts, Is Homesteading Worth It? & Money On The Homestead. I still don't have any solid answers. I'm just running on faith that one day it will all pay off and we'll have the resources to sustain this lifestyle. The greenhouse didn't get built in time for spring gardening …